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Thursday, December 29, 2011

..:: Looser ::..

Salam alls, 

Over a week i didn't update my lovely page...honestly i have no any idea to writing, I was tired mentally...no any sweet memory..nothing happened..just counting day by day to start a new life now...seems like sumthing to get off my chest..so stuffy...

Already my wrist getting problem ..3 days, start from today i hv to get massage which is that was hurt...i can't lift plate even...

Actually, no easy for me to confess i am failure for now ( i hope no forever), LOOSER...i felt so down..nothing can recover me...i will stand up slowly n try hard to cure everything by time..i promise to myself...mean time i tries to tuning back my memory system for new adaption in life...

My 2011 are sucks...everything are shits...I'm sick of life..sick of insincere...I promise to my self..I will move on..never turn back anymore...I don't care whatever people think bout me...seriously I don't give a damn what they say...i regret to become myself now ( ya Allah help me )

My God..i need a gift from u..pls...gimme strength to get up... i feel really really down..pls make me strong than now to finish my learning time...hopefully, now is time for me to perform my self...without nobody...just rely on my self...hope this 2012 will be a new doors for me to step in...I admitted that...I make too many mistake in life...

I know, as a muslim...i was failed...as a daughter for my parent...i failed again...as a wife...big failed...as a human...I'm going to fail...as a sister, lil sister...I fail too....all together make me a big looser in life..now, chance for me to get up from this failed to start  build a new life...Yes, I will do it...trust me...I am Noorfa....new Noorfa..without any influence from any side...i will start again from bottom...from ZERO...

InsyaAllah....with bless n guidance from Allah...thanks to give me ways for start...I keep strongly believed anything bad happened, come from me...good things happened comes from Allah...and everything was planned by HIM...For any test I got from HIM or retaliation, all have reason behind...

I trust my self...i trust my instinct...i trust my creator...Thanks to Allah...I'm still here... still breathing to fix everything....thank you Allah....

''I'l never care if critics over the line.....I knew that was no reason...got no shame...got nobody i can blame..let me confess sumthing....I'M SICK OF ALL INSINCERE....''

Wednesday, December 21, 2011

..:: Ni cite sal Fabian n Lola ::..

Salam sayang....arini nak membebel sal pets oke...sbb tgh teruja lg neh...


Dewasa ini, masalah semakin membelenggu diri aku ( benci nya ayat ni...dah ghupe esei BM kertas 2 dah...mencikkkkkkkkk)...i just got 1 pairs of hamster (yiiieeehaa besh2)..ni pun hadiah dr adik lelaki aku sbb nak hiburkan lara kakak dia ni...

Aku penah bela hamster dulu mase form 5, mase tu hadiah dr parents aku...cumel sgt..nama cumi n ciki ( jenis syrian hamster) tp after 1 year camtu, ajal mereka sampai...x tinggalkan ape2 zuriat pun kat aku...sob..sob sedey... pastu ade aku try bela kura2 yg kecil mase kat USM, tp x idup lama...x besar2 pun kura2 tu...x macam kura2 cousin aku..membesar sihat dan kuat macam minum susu Milo dan susu Dugro lak..


Kat umah ade la mak aku bela kucing, nama Abu...tp disebabkan aku ni alah kucing..so x dpt la mak manja2kan kucing tu..2-3 days ago adik aku ade bg adiah 1 pairs of hamster..ni mereka...

 Yg kat dalam umah tu female nama dia Lola..yg kat tepi tu male, nama dia Fabian ..really difficult for me to know which one in male or female coz they hv same face shape, color n size...Only way..yg malas or suka tido tu Lola, yg aktif terlajak tu Fabian..agaknye la kot...

Arini aku shopping sket brg2 keperluan Fabian ngan Lola ni utk keselesaan diorg..yg bestnya br 3 hari, fabian dah mula jinak giler..huhuhu...Lola x brape manja..sbb dia suka tido..sbb tu aku jarang men2 ngan dia...they are species  roborovski...yg paling senang jinak dan kecil...

Ade mcm2 spesis lagi..cam Syrian ( yg 1st aku bela dulu, diorg agak besar sket, bulu panjang), winter white, chinese dan lain2...jom layan pic je la k...

  Yg ni aku x sure Fabian ke Lola..haha teruk tol aku ni..br pas mandi neh dan dok main2 dlm ball dia...

 yg kat dalam tu konpem Lola....pemaleh...

 Ni cage yg aku beli utk diorg..nnti da beranak pinak br beli besar sket..
cukup ade wheel dia wat main, bekas air ngan bilik je dulu...

Diorang ni pe'el mmg suka turun camni..x reti guna tangga kot..tp naik pandai lak guna tangga..haiyaaa...lepas ni kena sediakan eskelator lak la..huhu

Fabian mmg rajin dgn larian setempat dia...rejim senaman dia utk kekalkan stamina katanya...hehe...tp Lola kengkadang sgt sbb dia malas...ntah2 preggy kot...huhuhu

ni konpom Lola....tido je kan..pemalehnye bini...

Susahnya nak snap pic diorg ni tuhan je yg tau...tergedik2 sgt kejenye...td mase bg mandi alahai...nak lari je..letak kat luar kang br tau...biar kena buli ngan tikus2 mondok..haha...

Ni mase shopping brg2 penjagaan Lola n Fabian ni..jom tgk k...

Ni makanan diorg, ade biskut vitamin yg kaler merah ngan ijau tu..sbb hamster suke menggigitkan...yg satu lagi tu, mixed cereal, ade kuaci..jagung..barli...kacang, pelet dan macam2...utk pastikan makanan diorg ni cukup gizi dan seimbang..walaweh ayat dah mcm doktor haiwan dah ni...hehe


Ni spray mandian utk diorg coz hamster x leh nak bg mandi ngan air cpt kena flu..but thats not a bird flu ok, just mickey mouse flu..huhu...

Spray ni anti bau, anti kutu dan anti bakteria..mmg khas utk hamster ngan rabbit jek, sila jgn pandai2 spray kat ketiak utk bg wangi..lepas spray je korang lapkan dgn towel khas..tu yg kaler purple wat alas tu towel Fabian n Lola la tu..pinjam wat background jap..

 If x nak spray pun, leh guna pasir wangi ni...sama gak anti bact dan anti segalanya lah...sbb hamster ni jenis pembersih..tuang dlm bekas mandi diorg cam bawah ni..( diorg ade bekas toilet gak tp aku x beli sbb mahal )

Bekas ni aku beli RM1 jek..hehe x yah beli toilet memahal...tuang pasir dlm tu, pastu mskkan Fabian n Lola, biar diorg golek2 bg wangi sket...tp aku bg dua2...pasir n spray skali skala...

Ni serbuk kayu (bedding) wajib ade dlm umah bekas cage sbb anti bakteria...kena slalu tukar utk elakkan dr busuk...murah je ni...

Ni hamster ball, mainan diorg if nak lepaskan kat luar cage supaya kucen aku a.k.a Abu x leh terkam..mcm yg pic kat atas tu..tp aku beli satu bajet nak masukkan dua2 skali, tetiba aku tgk Fabian lari laju, Lola yg tergolek2 x sempat nak selamatkan diri..konpem dia pening...haha sok nak beli lg satu...bg sorang satu ( silap sekor satu)..br leh bebas korang...

Itu saje kisah sal Fabian n Lola...setakat ni cukup la keperluan utk diorg..nnti ade rezeki lagi aku belikan umah besar utk diorg tp tunggu beranak pinak k...hehe
( nama Fabian n Lola aku ambil sempena cite Lola Calamidades tu )..ingat nak Lola ngan Marcelo..tp Fabian lg cumel kan...hehe...

p/s - ikutkan hati teringin nak sugar glider, tp mahal nak mampus + busuk + cerewet according to my cousin, dia ade bela sugar glider, tiap2 ari mak dia marah sbb busuk..hahahaha ( kalo mati x ke putih mata aku )...cancel...baik hamster...murah..cumel...dan cepat manja....

- Tamat -


















Thursday, December 15, 2011

..:: B.L.I.N.D::..

Salam Alaik....


I feel soooo down now...miss that "alien" damn much...seriously i HATE this feelin..really hate that...is not drama...but i felt so awkward with this situation...i can't make any decision just to make people happy!!! Satisfied!! while I'm not happy with that...this is not naive move...this is stupid...idiot...how can i described my feelin inside me right now??? no words for that...no reason for that...i just need give n take in life...can make everybody happy wit me...


If i can turn around my time ..i wish I'm not here now.... let me start from nothing to be sumthing...let me falls to many times in case of learn in life....i couldn't make u see it..I did try my best...i wont let people take me down in life...its damn difficult...now its too late for me...too late...


I have no strength anymore to carry this pain...can i move forward n left everything behind??? It will make me looser or selfish?? i don't mind any junk around me...people can be so show off to me...but they can't prove it how success they are...i'm exhausted with this now...i really want to go...i dun wanna be blind again toward life...coz life can be too cruel to me.. 


I am a human..i did many mistake in life...i was failed in life too...till i cant stand anymore...life can be cruel to me...people around can be cruel toward me too...but i cant be cruel to my self...i need change..i need hand to holding me forever...even i know that hand will never exist..i need give chance for my self...to be sumone...to JUST BE MY SELF... without any remote control to controlling me...

Lets Time Make a Decision For Me....Lets THE LORD show me the way, coz i strongly keep my faith on HIM.... 











 

Wednesday, December 14, 2011

..:: Kaum Pribumi @ Aborigines ::..

Salam 1 Malaysia...

Less than a month we will step into 2012....cam kejap giler mase berlalu skrg ni... tau x korang yang dalam dunia ni kebanyakkan penduduk-penduduk negara2 kat dunia ni 90% bukannya kaum asal negara tersebut??? Contohnya Malaysia, kaum asal atau dipanggil kaum pribumi (aborigines) kat Malaysia ni ialah Orang Asli...New Zealand terdapat kaum pribumi Mouri..kat Jepun ade kaum Ainu...n etc...

Last few weeks, aku ade la collect sket info dr Internet, books and so on bout few aborigine people in all over the world..( maybe u guys know bout this info but still i wanna write here for my references later )..lets check it out...we start from my own country...

ORANG ASLI DI MALAYSIA



Term for indigenous people in Malaysia is Orang Asli...secara formalnya terdapat 18 jenis suku kaum Orang Asli yang terbahagi kepada 3 jenis kaum terbesar...Semang (Negrito), Senoi dan Proto Malay..

They original language other than Malay language is Austro Asiatic dan Austronesian...most of them keep believe in they own religious Animisme dan lain2 ( Islam, Kristian,Hindu )..for more info leh check kat Wikipedia...

Orang Asli kat Malaysia skrg pun dah maju...x macam zaman dulu2 okes...

( Sources From http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Orang_Asli...) 


AUSTRALIAN ABORIGINES



In Australia, they have they origin people they call Australian Aborigines..they are original people in Australia land before British colonize Australia in 1788..but then they population been genocide by others migrant in history before ( this info i just get from interviews with Australian frens ), but last few years if i'm not mistaken, Australia Govt Officially ask Apologized bout genocide this people..they famous music by this ethnic is Didgeridoo 
( leh tgk kat You Tube )...For more info u can check in Wikipedia..

(Source by  http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Australian_Aborigines )


AINU PEOPLE IN JAPAN N RUSSIA..



Indigenous people in Russia n Japan is Ainu people.. Historically they spoke the Ainu Language. Most of those who identify themselves as Ainu still live in this same region, though the exact number of living Ainu is unknown. This is due to confusion over mixed heritages and to-ethnic issues in Japan  resulting in those with Ainu backgrounds hiding their identities.

In Japan, because of intermarriage over many years with Japanese, the concept of a pure Ainu ethnic group is no longer feasible. Official estimates of the population are of around 25,000, while the unofficial number is upward of 200,000 people.

(Source from  http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ainu_people)



MOURI PEOPLE IN NEW ZEALAND 




I guess to many people know bout Mouri people in New Zealand bcoz they have a famous dance always been present by New Zealand Rugby National Team they call HAKA dance..really interesting dance and they purpose for scare they opponent..Mouri people consider themselves as first nation in New Zealand..( tarian best tu leh tgk kat Youtube )


The Maori peoples in New Zealand are its First Nations and are named from the words Ma-Uri, meaning Children of Heaven. more info can click here ..


(Source from http://pattyinglishms.hubpages.com/hub/Aborigines-New-Zealand)




Takat ni dulu la ekh...actually byk lg dr negara2 lain macam dr America ade Red Indian Apache dan lain-lain tp aku x brape tau sgt info sal negara2 tuh..so utk skrg ni setakat tu dulu la ye..

If korang nak info lanjut leh layari laman web yang aku da bg tu..sbb byk info best sal kaum pribumi ni..budaya menarik..makanan dan macam2 lagi..x leh aku nak muatkan kat sini, so aku ringkaskan je la ye..

p/s - If any of info from this article have error (maybe they own people read this), pls correct me..tq..




























Monday, December 12, 2011

..:: Sometimes We Have To Accept Life Can't Always Perfect::..

Assalamualaikum....


According to that pic above...that's me...upside down..

Seriously, lately everything upside down in my life...i mean EVERYTHING....my health..my financial...my life..my blogpage...my stories...n my oh my...some idea comes across to my mind few second..n then on my lappy..immediately that ideas disappear as a wind hit my pretty ugly face...i was confuse bout my life...belong to who?? me myself? my parents? 


Last few days,i tried to cover up my feeling wit my gff n cousin, haha we call Ladies Nite, just have fun wit my gff..Whole day we just hang out together..watching muvie "Ombak Rindu" (jenguh melangut sbb dpt tiket depan skali..hampess tol)...makan-makan..gossiping...till finish our day..

Honestly i'm not fan of muvie in cinema..rather i just wait DVD or Astro First then wasting my money behind cinema...which is i knew that, in end i'll be so disappointing with muvie especially malay movie..
( sorry to say this but i felt that way )...exp Lagenda Budak Setan and Ombak Rindu (really disappointing)...unless RM 5.00 ticket just ( on Wednesday, thats orait )


Last nite me, Ikin again ''berjimba-jimba'' at Hot Spring Water Baling ( Ulu Lenggong )... Really fun we can spent time there almost 3 hours n we feel so great n fresh after all those stress life n upside down crazy...i dunno why I'm so panicking in life now...bluurrr...dunno what to do, i got nerves breakdown or what?? small thing even can work on my nerves now...Ya Allah..hopefully everything will be better after this...



p/s - next entry will be bout Australian Aborigine, Mouri People in New Zealand..Orang Asli and so on...so interesting bout them...last few days Holland Government officially  apologized to Indonesia Govt bout genocide ppl in Indo......




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