Salam alls,
Over a week i didn't update my lovely page...honestly i have no any idea to writing, I was tired mentally...no any sweet memory..nothing happened..just counting day by day to start a new life now...seems like sumthing to get off my chest..so stuffy...
Already my wrist getting problem ..3 days, start from today i hv to get massage which is that was hurt...i can't lift plate even...
Actually, no easy for me to confess i am failure for now ( i hope no forever), LOOSER...i felt so down..nothing can recover me...i will stand up slowly n try hard to cure everything by time..i promise to myself...mean time i tries to tuning back my memory system for new adaption in life...
My 2011 are sucks...everything are shits...I'm sick of life..sick of insincere...I promise to my self..I will move on..never turn back anymore...I don't care whatever people think bout me...seriously I don't give a damn what they say...i regret to become myself now ( ya Allah help me )
My God..i need a gift from u..pls...gimme strength to get up... i feel really really down..pls make me strong than now to finish my learning time...hopefully, now is time for me to perform my self...without nobody...just rely on my self...hope this 2012 will be a new doors for me to step in...I admitted that...I make too many mistake in life...
I know, as a muslim...i was failed...as a daughter for my parent...i failed again...as a wife...big failed...as a human...I'm going to fail...as a sister, lil sister...I fail too....all together make me a big looser in life..now, chance for me to get up from this failed to start build a new life...Yes, I will do it...trust me...I am Noorfa....new Noorfa..without any influence from any side...i will start again from bottom...from ZERO...
InsyaAllah....with bless n guidance from Allah...thanks to give me ways for start...I keep strongly believed anything bad happened, come from me...good things happened comes from Allah...and everything was planned by HIM...For any test I got from HIM or retaliation, all have reason behind...
I trust my self...i trust my instinct...i trust my creator...Thanks to Allah...I'm still here... still breathing to fix everything....thank you Allah....
''I'l never care if critics over the line.....I knew that was no reason...got no shame...got nobody i can blame..let me confess sumthing....I'M SICK OF ALL INSINCERE....''