..:: Bebelan Wanita Psycho ::..

Assalamualaikum dan salam 1 Malaysia.....

Bersediakan korang dgn repekan wanita saiko ni?????

Td aku kuar ngan seorang teman ni yg boleh dikata kan teman istimewa aku a.k.a specky diver yg sggup mendengar celoteh aku...rungutan aku dan lain2...ntah camane la dia leh tahan telinga dgr aku bebel2 sal hidup aku ni hahahaha...aku pun x snggup jd dia if dpt teman tapi mesra cam aku ni... ( paham x ayat aku ni. aku sendiri pening )

Lepaking2 kat kedai mamak kena teh tarik segelas dua, adik aku pun dtg dan join kitorg...pastu ade la cite sal  kes2 taksub ni...br2 ni kan ade kes pasal amukan kat JPM tu kan...yg lelaki samurai mengaku Imam Mahdi tu...rupa2nya arwah pun seorang blogger gak...td aku pg la jenguk blog arwah cuma aku x paham sgt ape yg cuba arwah smpaikan...ade yg kata arwah ngan perempuan tu taksub dgn Illuminati...pastu ade plak vangang2 yg politikkan isu ini...macam2 dunia skrg...

Mcm aku...if aku minat satu isu tu mmg aku cam ala2 jakun or taksub...tp kejap je la...pastu aku blah..sbb aku kan lalang..mane de nak stick ngan satu benda je kan..hahaha otak aku pun nak kena tune blk...delete fail2 lama...pastu format blk dan restart..br leh mulakan hidup baru...penah satu tahap tu aku giler taksub ngan isu Illuminati...tiap2 hari aku search pasal Freemason...buka video smpai sume benda aku leh try kaitkan ngan Illuminati ni...smpai stereng keta aku pun aku tenung lelama pastu mula la otak aku ckp ''ni mesti lambang illuminati ni..nak try sesatkan org Malaysia''..ntah ape kaitan aku pun x tau...sian kat stereng tu...( kat situ pun dah nmpak kebengongan aku kan )

 Tapi ketaksuban aku tu cuma mampu bertahan dalam seminggu dua...pastu aku pun start cemuih ( boring )..hahah bila aku pikir blk...aku mula rasa yg aku ni cam bodoh pun ade gak...suka pikir benda yg bukan2...nasib aku x jadik giler...aku suka benor imagine benda2 yg merapu...pelik tol ngan sikap aku ni...tp alhamdulillah aku cepat tersedar...rakan2..family sume byk membantu...

Aku rasa ni mesti sbb aku terlampau stress dgn keadaan aku kan...hahahahaha....thx utk teman mesra aku a.k.a specky diver tu...smpai masa, sy akan publish awk dlm hidup saya k..sbb awk byk membantu dlm proses penyembuhan otak sy tau....hahahaha sbb awk pun saiko gak ngan hidup awk...

p/s - sape kata aku saiko..aku tampo laju2 nak!!!!

..:: S.I.N.G.L.E ::..

Salam Alaik.....

Hye peeps....quite long time I didn't update my blog since I was in trouble in my life...I can say..my life are sucks anyway....all turn as a hell...can't describe how is that happened, but things are difficult for me to start again..

Being a single for some people, maybe are disaster..but not for all I guess...Me??  I would like to have a single life again as long as I'm happy n can make people around me happy...but all those things deciding by Allah..not me...As His slave, I just follow my destiny...rather being a single or havin a partner...

When we look at other people still single in her/his life even though his/her age should have a family...we have no right to simply accusing that person in negative way such as choosy, not honored, high taste and so on coz...

we just know what happened in her/his life without knowing what she/he going through...

Or someone we know are failed in marriage and being a single again..we have no right to judge her/him...coz all this thing happened with a reason...''what goes around comes around''...today we laugh or talk bad bout sumone...not impossible that thing will happens in our life...or people we loved most...think positive way...why happened to her/him...maybe they're not match...or maybe...

''....IT IS BETTER TO BE ALONE THAN WITH SUMONE WHO MAKES U FEEL ALONE....''

So, sit down n think carefully....human are not perfect...

''..... ONE OF THE HARDEST DECISIONS YOU'LL EVER FACE IN LIFE IS CHOOSING WHETHER TO WALK AWAY OR TRY HARDER...''

I'm tired of try harder...so I choose to walk away....damn it....

With Love 

Fatiha 

Bye!!!!!!

..:: Can't Think Properly ::..

Salam Alaik...

Ola amigos...como estas...estoy muy bien...hahaha ni demam Spanish ok sbb Euro 2012 coz I support Spain...n Jerman.... my pakwe ade main situ kan...Mesut Ozil...si mata krek...lalalalala...

I was feel like ting tong ..why??? well...maybe this is a syndrome of almost 30th...wadefak kan...actually, I cant think properly rite now...

With full of love n honest...I wanna make a confession that I am CHAOTIC...PATHETIC...ALIENATIC...and so on....I screwed up...everything...my life fucked up...was sucks...damn it... I hate this feelin....so bad...



But.................sumthing happened...........

Lately, I can smile...start smiling again...coz sumthing happened...make me smile...n this is the right time for me to try sumthing new...everybody had a phase in their life...so do I...

I have a different stage in my life...I guess macam telenovela...ade sahabat yg boleh berkongsi cerita bgtau yang me myself should write my own life story as novel...macam sihalan kan...phuuii...

For them, my stories are awesome n unique...Yes coz I'm the one whom facing with situation..not them...dah serupa telenovela...

All mixed up,...happy...sad...depressed...laugh..in love......
end love..horror...fuuhhh..seyes dah mcm telenovela versi Portuguese...

Bila umur dah menghampiri 30-an ( lg 2 tahun je lagi ahaks )...so emosi pun agak bercelaru...ade sindrom dtg mengganggu...negatif dan positif...

Negative side is jealousy...lonely ranger...feelin looser...turn off my mind...

Positive side is I feel more stronger.....numb...can be myself...enjoy with my self...I am my self...turn on my mind...

So, the best thing for me to new phase in my life is TRY TO EXPLORE SUMTHING NEW...which is, YES this is wht I'm doing rite now...yeay..say

Hello to my new world....

WELCOME TO MY NEW LIFE....

p/s - adekah ini yang dialami oleh wanita2 lain yang menghampiri umur seperti aku...or aku je yg jd meroyan camni...sila jawab!!!

..:: Soal Hati, Aku Juga Tidak Mengerti ::..

Assalamualaikum dan salam 1 Malaysia lagi...

Mendiamkan diri adalah lebih baik utk aku...coz aku juga tak mengerti soal hati bila aku selalu merindui..menanti..merasakan keinginan hati..terasa sgt selesa bila berbicara dengannya...walaupun sikapnya seakan gampang..

Terasa kedamaian hati...seolah diri sedang difahami...lantas kekosongan itu di isi...tak sanggup meletakkan harapan lagi...tak sanggup menanti...

Maka kata putus diambil...Mendiamkan diri dan menjarakkan diri adalah yang paling terbaik...untuk mengelakkan ketidakwarasan...

Tak mungkin perkataan selamat tinggal akan ku ucapkan kerana hidup ini indah dan tak mungkin kuduga ape yang akan berlaku.. 

Walaupun mungkin berdekad..ianya tak mungkin akan pudar dan tiada siapa yang tahu apa yang akan terjadi, berapa banyak penderitaan yang akan dilalui...

Ia hadir lagi tanpa diduga...hadir saat segalanya terluka...

Soal Hati...Aku Juga Tidak Mengerti...

nukilan rasa oleh aku yang suka merapu...utk setan sebelah rumah yang mesra alam...hahaha

p/s -  ni cuma khayalan semata tiada kena mengena dgn yg hidup atau yang telah mati...

..:: Never Say Goodbye ::..

You know it...............I know it too............

Our destinies are going away from each other..........

Even after going away far from me...........

Pls stay in my memory..........

Never say goodbye

Whatever happiness was there.........Everything is lost

But the sadness doesn't go...........Tried to pursue... tried to entertain

But this heart won't get peace......

Is it a tear or a piece of burning coal?

Now fire will flow from eyes.........

Never say goodbye

seasons came, seasons went.............

but the season of pain didn't change

this light colour is so deep...............

that even after decades it won't fade

won't fade.........who knows what will happen

how much more we have to suffer.......

PLEASE NEVER SAY GOODBYE... 

p/s - Original poem from - Kabhi Alvida Naa Kehna....

..:: Sombong ::..

Assalamualaikum....dan Salam 1 Malaysia...

Sombong ni kan sikap syaitan...nape manusia kena ikut sangat2 sikap ni seolah2 dunia ni kita yang punya..

Sedey bila tgk sesetengah org yang xde la kategori kaya...xde la kategori anak raja even kerabat diraja...tp sombong mengalahkan PAris Hilton...ermmm...

Part pling sedey ialah org2 macam tu adalah Muslim...ermmm xde ke sekelumit perasaan humble dlm diri masing2...

Drive keta besar tak bermakna nnti kat akhirat kereta tu yg akan menyelamat kan kita dr Titian Siratulmustakim...

p/s - sumtimes diri ini pun ade terbit perasaan syaitan tu...alhamdulillah selalu dpt teguran dr Allah dan cepat2 istighfar...cuma sumtimes tanpa sedar perasaan tu beraja di hati...moga Allah memaafkan segala sifat2 buruk ku ini...amin....

..:: Terlerai Sudah ::...

Assalamualaikum.....salam 1 Malaysia

Ermmm...letih sbb br je blk dr Sungai Petani....drive sensorang mmg meletihkan otak n minda...tekehel pinggang2...kejung kaki2...

Letih segalanya.....

Letih berbicara...letih mempertahankan....letih menerangkan...letih bercakap....letih mengikut...letih menulis...letih meletakkan kan harapan....letih menjalinkan hubungan...keletihan yang tahap gaban...oke...korang ade???? 

Hanya Allah maha mengetahui dan mengerti...

ok lah babai....

p/s - menantikan segalanya tamat dan terlerai....peace yow....sucha long tiny tired day....